Stretch me because you know my potential more than I do. You know how deep this heart of mine is and how deeply I can love you by loving others in the way that brings glory to you. Thank you for answering my prayers even when it means I have to be on my own and for walking with me every step of the way. Thank you for breaking my heart for worldly things that breaks your heart. Transform me everyday so I can love more and I can love deeper than what I have done yesterday and today. Not just practical love Lord but righteous, discerning and glorious love. Thank you for loving me everyday
Your precious one,
Sha Sha 🙂
Philippians 1:9-11 (ESV)
9 And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment,10 so that you may approve what is excellent,and so be pure and blameless for the day of Christ,11 filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God.
Follow the way of righteousness
Free yourself from earth’s wickedness;
Never doubt God’s love for you
Remember He died on the cross to save you.
For simple blessings, let your spirit be grateful
In any circumstances, please choose to be joyful;
When people keep telling you it is IMPOSSIBLE
Jesus puts a character and a space to it and said I’M POSSIBLE
Never doubt your faith for it conquers hate
God knows your heart and delivers to you to joyful state
In times of trouble, let your spirit cry
He will comfort you and lifts you high.
Learn to trust God with all your heart
For he knows His plans for you even from the start;
Plans to prosper you and not to harm you
So rest in knowing God will deliver you
Get ready for the wild ride He’s prepared you for
Be ready to be loved and blessed some more;
Keep pressing forward and rejoice day and night
Live knowing that in His eyes you’re a sweet BIG DELIGHT!
I know that God did lots of miracles in the time of Moses, David, Paul, Peter, John and the rest of people listed in the bible. But I admit, I also hope to see those miracles in this modern times.. so here’s my sweet little encounter of God’s miracle 🙂
THE RUSH
28 Nov 2015 – just only a week and a half’s time before my biggest (and only my second) hosting stint yet (500 in attendance), I went to Divisoria (a place in Manila, Philippines) where you can buy cheap stuff and I must say of quality too. Wholesale stuff and heaven for hagglers. With a sample dress print out at hand, I went to one stall and got my measurement, I chose the stretchable silk material for my off-shoulder peach dress. A week after (5 Dec), with full of excitement, I came back to pick up the dress and the lady have failed me big time – it was not the kind of dress I want to wear on a mad men themed night (I almost gone mad I tell ya!) I tried it on and I looked like a hotel drape or a skirting of the buffet table! Awful! Really awful that I didn’t consider getting one snap of it! I went home with a heavy heart as its only few days before the event and here I am back to zero on dress hunting.
THE WORD
The day after, I went to attend Sunday service and prayed to God to help me find the right dress as I’m running out of time. I’ve read my devotion that morning and God gave me this verse:
“Matthew 17:20 (NIV) He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed,you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move.Nothing will be impossible for you.”
So I went to the mall right after service and continued the search. Walked for hours with my 4 y/o daughter Jade until finally I came to “People Are People” shop and found a dress that’s one size bigger. Thankfully they have one last piece left (in 5 city branches in the city!) at a store close to where I live. Went there to try the dress and instantly, I felt like it was love at first sight (maybe out of desperation too!) I purchased it and when I got home and was about to wash the dress, I noticed the tag of the dress (see picture below) and I was stunned! I knew instantly it was God who picked this dress for me like I’m going on a date night and my man picked a dress that he wants me to wear (that was super sweet!!) It says ‘Mustard Seed’ a part of the verse I read that morning!!
The dress’ tagMy ‘Mustard Seed’ dress
THE LESSON
Sometimes, we think that God’s miracles only looked like parting the Red Sea, defeating Goliath, making blind man see, breaking the walls of Jericho and changing an executioner Saul to Paul, God showed his power in awe-mazing way and truly those who experienced that and believed, can testify to His great and mighty power. But what I’ve learned is that, God is concerned even in our very little issues – like finding a dress 🙂 God still makes miracles and very much present, we just need to be sensitive in order to identify those miracles and have the boldness to ask and believe in Him. God wants us to experience Him everyday and as we embark to a new year, let our spirit have that longing always to encounter God in however way – be it as small as a mustard seed or as big as parting the Red Sea.
My wedding bouquet – perfectly arranged the way I imagined it would be when I was a little girl
Whew! I am not sure if now is even the right time to start putting my thoughts in this platform where people can read it (be inspired or be criticized) but either way, I want this to be a venue to translate my thoughts into something visible.. something that could make an impact in some extent, forms and sorts. I want this to be the first one that I will publish here.
BACKGROUND:
I started writing this poem late Oct 2015. I was feeling low and felt abandoned by the world. I know it’s a horrible thing to say when I have my family and my daughter with me and they completely accepted me and bore the pain with me. I just felt I was so alone and being the hugger that I am, I felt like I was longing for that distinct hug that will quiet my spirit and heal all the wounds and take away the pain. I somehow got stuck with just 2 lines..
WHAT CHANGED:
So for the last few months, this one sat on my iCloud notes unfinished. Then I was able to talk to some inspirational bloggers and encouraged me to start blogging (Peng and JR! I love you you guys!!).. well, I wanted to do it for almost 2 years now and also delayed it for almost two years. I have my drafts, my letters, my thoughts, brain farts and just anything that I would love to write about.. I just felt I needed an outlet to finally convert all these thoughts in my head and let the world see that part of me that wanders and wonders.
OUTPUT:
Now here it is, the very first one of the many that I will post.. this is quite a love story so enjoy!
QUITE A LOVE STORY
More than anyone else, it’s your presence that I miss.
More than many hugs, it’s your warmth that gives me peace.
More than any voice, it’s yours that I long to hear.
More than any love, it’s yours that brings me joyful tears.
When I thought I was alone, your presence surprises me.
When I rejoice and sing, your love has taken over me.
When I get tempted, you lead my focus back to you.
I sing and call upon you, suddenly I’m no longer blue.
Whenever I am at my lowest
You show your love at its greatest;
Life’s troubles may tear me down
But you turned my frown upside down.
People may come and go but you remain constant;
You remain close no matter how I become distant.
You always kept on trying to sweep me off my feet.
You’ve never given up on me and isn’t that sweet?
Thanks for making me realize that it’s you I want more than ever;
Thank you that your love stays the same yesterday, today and forever.
You are the kind of lover this heart of mine seek.
Indeed the perfect man for this hopeless romantic.
You’ve won me over and over again
Despite the many heartaches and pain.
You made me realize I’m bought for a price
And that I am loved deeply by you, Lord Jesus Christ.
She who wanders and wonders 